I know this grief thing is a bunch of peaks and troughs, but damn is it hard. The last month or so, in particular, was difficult; in fact… one of the most difficult since you left, 1 year and 4 months ago. Maybe it’s the lack of sleep because Aaira is teething? Or.. maybe it’s… Continue reading This grief thing…
It’s been one hell of a journey; one that my 17-month-old and I have been struggling with since day one! Some upfront facts: I have been exclusively nursing Aaira since she was bornAaira has been 'feeding to sleep' since she was bornAfter 12 months, I felt like I could no longer continue nursing to sleepAt… Continue reading Baby sleep: The struggle
Without meaning to, I have been digging life’s building blocks; relationships I held/hold, purpose, passions, behaviour, personality, and my way of thinking – questioning everything. Grief is draining, that’s a fact. But, there was more to the emptiness.
Clearing my throat and shaking the tears out of my voice, I calmly asked the consultant a few more questions. Irrelevant questions. I knew the answers already, but I wanted Papa to hear my steady voice. I wanted him to feel some comfort. If that was at all possible.
And no matter what anyone tried to say to me, whatever hope they tried to give me, I knew. I just knew deep in my heart that every moment from that point on was precious.
4th May 2021 The truth is, Papa you weren’t just my Dad. You were my best friend, my protector and guide. Yes, you provided and disciplined like a father is ‘meant to’, but the love you gave me - that unconditional love – it was unique. Simply one of a kind. Growing up, you made… Continue reading Papa and I: A father daughter thing
‘I remember, as a child I always liked to lay on your chest. Why? To listen to your heart beat. My Papa’s heartbeat. Strong. Unmoving. & Powerful. Just like you. I would laugh and tell you how I could hear it, loud and clear. You would smile, put your hand lovingly on my head and… Continue reading Dear Papa
IT could be your first home, car, holiday, laptop upgrade or something else entirely. Regardless of whatever has come to your mind, you may need to save some ££s to get it.
For a while now, something has been on my mind and I have wanted to address it, but never really sussed out how. I have tweeted it about it a few times, so maybe that’s the best way to start: Body image. What is it? According to Mental Health: “Body image’ is a term that can… Continue reading ‘No aunty ji, no one wants to know what you think of Person X’s recent weight gain’
Oh my. Had I known I'd be thrown into such an emotional rollercoaster I'd have been better prepared. The thing is, I love Nicholas Sparks and his books, honestly - every single one of them. They make my heart swell with happiness and then break down all within the space of 500 or so pages.… Continue reading Two By Two… A review